Ever since I got epilepsy I have lost my friends. How do I make new ones?

I also suffer from clinical depression. I'm 33 and my interest aren't that common. I don't get out much because public transportation sucks where I live. I'm embarred by the fact that I'm not working and living with my mother. My seizures are too often to drive.My mom claims most of my interest are too complicated for us to have a conversation about. I feel I have trouble talking to people now because I'm scared they won't understand my pion, music. I'm scared of talking to a strangers"Hey I'm working on a track doing metric modulation where it's actually a 6/8 time signature that feel likes 4/4 and man, is it hard for me to learn."I don't think I'm smart but I'm scared of talking to people about myself because when I do I usually get funny looks and feel stupid. I miss talking about chaos theory, the artist I admire, words (yeah it's weird I used to read dictionaries of metaphors, cliches, similes) Most of all I miss the support I got from friends in chasing my dreams.